Fighting a Loosing Battle

Don’t take the psychological effects of stalking lightly. I am experiencing them first hand. And even though I try not to pay too much attention to the problem, I find myself thinking about it a lot more than I want. It pops up in my dreams, I lay awake tryin’ to find answers to so many questions I get asked. There is the occasional anxiety when I receive a text message or when answering a call from an unknown number.

And then of course, I am still uncertain if this will ever stop. I mean, even if it would stop now, it could start all over again in a couple of months or years.l

Filing a complaint with the police surely was a big step forward. I should have done that a lot sooner. I must say that local police has been very helpful. They took my complaint very serious. I was actually a bit surprised about that. But of course, all of it takes time and still the outcome of their investigation is uncertain. And to be honest, I have run out of patience. I want the matter resolved today!

I am just tired of answering the same questions over and over again. I really don’t know who is bugging me. I don’t even have a clue. I don’t even wanna try and take a wild guess. I’ve asked myself the same questions too and I have not found any answers. I don’t wanna try to get in somebody else’s head and guess what they are thinking. All I can do, is ask some of the same questions and hope there is someone out there that can provide answers. And other than that: I’m trying keep my head clear of those questions. I am fighting a loosing battle…